Monthly Archives: May 2014

The Dawn

This is written for you, and you only. So don’t panic!
There were times when I had lost hopes of meeting both sides of my life- or make any meaning out of my life. I couldn’t accept anyone or wasn’t willing to let anyone in.
But little I knew, that what I had felt ages, seven years to be precise, ago would let me live, again.

I have gone through various things in the past seven years- there were times that I just want to forget and times that I hold close to my heart. But all of them, summed up to this- you!

No one understands what the Almighty has in store for us, but I will take this as a sign. I have put my faith on Him and so, on you too. The lessons that I have learnt, hopefully made me a better person. Worthy of you I hope, at least.

So thank you, for letting me open the door. Thank you, for being the one who I had hoped will be the one.
Thank you.

The Door

I’m ready to invite someone into my life again. When I say “I’m ready” I now truly mean I am comfortable with where I am in life, I don’t need someone to fill a void, make me whole, complete me, or any such bulldust. I mean I’m ready to share and experience life again with someone else, I’m after a partner not a heroine or a damsel in distress.
“Would you like to go out on a date?” What makes this one phrase so damn hard to say? It’s only nine words. It took me a while to put my finger on it and what it boils down to is that the one thing is of course—fear. Not the fear of being rejected, or of not being good enough. No, it’s none of those; it’s the fear of letting someone inside my walls. Knowing that in nine simple words I am opening a door inside myself so the person sitting opposite me can come inside and Love, Hurt, Help, Betray, Strengthen or Weaken. I don’t truly know the person sitting across from me yet and I don’t know what they are like as a person or will do in the future, but I really do want to find out. But open that door I must if I want to have any form of meaningful relationship.

For me opening that door scares the absolute living daylights out of me.I think this door may always be hard for me to open but I also know the rewards are worth it.

আকাশ কালো মেঘের ঘনঘটায় বৃষ্টি পায় সুখ
চোখের জলে ভেসে যাবে আজ যতো কষ্টের মুখ
আঁকবে সব স্মৃতি আজ নতুন করে

দিনের শুরুতে সব ভুল আঁকড়ে থাকে পুরনো কথা
শ্যাওলা ভেজা দেয়ালে ছায়া থাকে হাত বাড়িয়ে
মিথ্যের ডানায় জীবন উড়ে না দেখা স্বপ্নের দেশে


মুহূর্তের মুহূর্ত স্তব্ধ রাখে সময়
তীব্র আলোর পিছনে লুকিয়ে সূর্য 
বিস্মৃত ছায়ায় তোমার অতীত

নিজেকে খুঁজতে তাকাও অন্যের চোখে
পারবে কি আজ চিনতে মৃত নিজেকে?

চোখের জলে আটকে থাকা দৃষ্টি 
বুনে চিন্তার জালে কষ্টের যতো স্মৃতি
আঁধারকে জড়িয়ে অন্ধকার বাঁচে

মরে হারিয়ো না বেঁচে 
অন্যের মুঠোয় রেখো না নিজেকে
উড়ে যাও ভেসে, নিজের হারানো আকাশে